:: The Depths Of My Mind ::

For the past few weeks, I’ve been thinking about quiting my current job as a M&E Engineer in Jurutera Perunding **** ****. This was not an easy decision, however after serious thought and deliberate consideration, I have officially tendered out my resignation yesterday.

Recently, there were grapevine spread all around the office, mainly on employees' concern pertaining their low renumeration relative to their heavy work load. The growing dissatisfactions inside me had also reached a point where I was so persistent about resigning this time.

I will never ever whine over my work load, I promise, for he is the one who pay my salary. He scolded about anything that he thought was wrong, I'm okay with that. The time when I grumbled about the increasing work load, he still refused to take in new staff in view of cost-cutting, Im still okay with that. And needless to mention, the same cost-cutting ideology is what he is implementing to hold our increment. Well, at least I'm the only one who can tolerate on that.. But...

"How could you expect our salary to be stagnant at this point, when you are the only one who are driving big cc cars, and surprisingly, your cost-cutting just bought you a NEW CAR, just explain to me which part of cost-cutting that I missed," the question that burst out my anger in front of my boss.

I threw the question with no expectation to receive any kind of explanation/excuse from him. I was so sad. All this while Ive dedicated all my hard works to the company, yet the company deceived me. I felt so irritated to think how could he take chance of current economy condition against his own employees, those who serve his company. And I felt even more irritated to think how patient I have been for how long, while my boss is the only one who is busy making out money.

Surprisingly, he tried to diverted the issue by questioning my loyalty to the company. Haih, I might not be the most loyal person in the company, but rest assure I can be the most hardworking person you ever hired. How you want to define loyal or hardworking, your call! To me, no point you are loyal when you are so unproductive, being a lazy bumps sitting on your chair all day long doing nothing, doing the same thing for 10 years down the line, now that's loyal!

It didn't take long before I decided to draft my letter of resignation. I tendered out my resignation the next day. I understand, changing jobs in this time of uncertainty could kill my financially and emotionally, but i would take the chance rather than serve a company which I already doubt their capability to commit welfare to their employees.

My employment termination is preceded by 1 month notice, effective immediately. My tenure in this company will end on 15 November 2009.

I don't do this usually, but what I'm about to share is a serious religious talk.

Disclaimer, my depth of knowledge might not so deep, shallow and surface, but after what i had experienced i felt obligated to divulge the story so that we can all acquire the goods from it.

Im still in shock after what I've experienced just now. To begin with, one of my friends invited me to attend his 'group' discussion. To cut the story short and straight, I agreed to accompany him without knowing what kind of discussion will it be.

The meeting started pretty harmless, no sign of anything abnormal.

"What do you know about Islam?", question that stopped me from sipping my cup. At first I thought that Ustaz-look-alike was just being a weirdo to throw me that kind of question, but then only I realized, all eyes around the table were looking at me, sharply pending my answer.

I was so nervous that not even a single word came out from my mouth, I was completely stunned by that question. As I was wondering why in the world he asked me that question, I started to notice that the discussion is not actually a 'normal' discussion like what I thought. Their discussion was mostly about global issues and Islam

At first, nothing is weird, I didn't have any problem in nodding my head. But all of sudden, he took out Al-Quran translate and find few verses to backup his claims. I might not the expert, but i had a feeling that its not wise to simply quote verses from Al-Quran as it might have indirect meaning, only Mighty Allah knows. Seriously, that so-called Ustaz simply flipped through the pages and quoted as he goes. I didn't say a word but i stopped nodding to show my disagreement to that kind of discussions.

And 30 minutes down the line, the discussions went deeper and deeper, and they started to talk about Al-Fatihah translation, and God forgive them, they tried to relate the meanings of Al-Fatihah with Malaysian Leadership. At this moment of time, I really cant help it, my bullshyt-o-meter shot sky-high and I just can't take it any further, so I left.

Use our wise, for Allah had given us 'aqal' to think about Allah's creations, and not to deceive one another.

The argument was so persuasive. I recall few of their false claims:

i) We do everything with Bismillah. Thus Bismillah means whatever we do we must understand Allah. Like Communism, Islam direction shall be towards Allah-ism (note Allah-ism is what they used)

ii) They talked about Al-Fatihah. Basically they claim you are one of the early 'mukminin', and Islam is on the rise again, they are giving us this awareness, and we're creating this country somewhere, and hope us to join them. They claimed that Islam administration changed from time to time. Mecca, Madinah, Mecca, Damsyik, Turki etc, but in the end it will reach Malaysia.

This is when I stopped listening. I felt I've been bluffed twice, the 1st one was in Da Vinci Code movie! Little bit of clues strategically located will make you believe even harder.

Let us pray, for our own safe, for Allah's forgiveness upon them, and may Allah redirect those who have divert from Islam tought. Amin.

I feel so sad :(

Voilà..! Introducing the long-awaited modified Merc 200E





I have to admit it, Iwas stunned the first time I saw it drive-in into our car porch. The shiny silver spray paint, black leather seat, polished interior, newly-sprayed rim, new lamp with silver lining, everything is simply impressive. Not to mention, with a new auto transmission installed, there is a slighly improvement on the engine performance. The modification was very gratifying to us and me myself satisfied with the works as a whole.

But among all, the thing that I like the most is the new hood. Hehe. It fits the car nicely, looks so rigid and from certain angle, the hood looks just like Rolls Royce hood! Seriously I like it.

Hmm, talking about rigid, I wonder why old cars were made so solid. And by solid I mean rock solid. You name it, old Mercs, old BMWs, old Volvos, or even old Sagas.

Watch this clip and you will understand my point. Its not exacly the same model that my dad own but looking at the more-less-is-the same design, I guess they are from the same generation.

Seriousy check this out!

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

This girl went all out trying to demolish the car, bashed the car with baseball bat, flood it with water, and BIGFOOT ran over it. Crazy test yet the car still somehow survived and rather be in an acceptable condition I can say. Amazing! I should have tried these to our merc before.

But seriously, what made old car so strong. Is it the material? Or because of the old-timer worksmanship? That I do not know, but I do know old cars rock! Hehe. And judging its toughness, i would rather call this car 'tanks' :D

It’s long been theorized that happy people generally are in better health, but researchers aren’t sure why. Theres a strong evidence that the happier you are, the healthier you will be.

This week ive been warned by the consequences of smiling, and it might be the time for me to learn how to control smiling for no reason. Yeah, seriously for no reason!

I smiled while doing the stupid AutoCAD,
smile while flaming stupid contractor,
smile just looking at stack of paper that mess up my desk,
not to mention smile while SMS-ing :p...

smile here, smile there. Simply smile smile smile..
If study says smile offer you better health, i couldnt agree more. Then my health has come to the point where even when boss 'tiaw kaw kaw', i still able to carve a smile on my face. And thats real healthy!! Haha..

Well.. Im in a good mood these past weeks, and to be frank... there's something that keep me smiling all day long



Talk about happiness.. Hehe..

Got this from an email. One may have good eyes and yet see nothing...

Observe around you and be thankful for all that you have in this transitory lifetime. We are fortunate, we have much more than what we need to be content. Talk about living in a society that forgets and ignores the other two thirds of our brothers and sisters.